Today my heart aches like very other day,
my soul cries a river of tears that never seems to dry up.
I wish I may I wish I might,
have the wish I wish tonight.
As far back as I can remember I have desired my soul mate if such a thing exists.
I don't know how much longer I can hold on.
The fortress walls are crumbling around me.
I doubt whether you exist,
I wish for you every time I think of of my pain.
I have a kind heart, and I look for the other half.
I have been to bars, their hearts are stained with accepted sin.
I have looked online they are insincere.
I have been watchful my whole adult life,
I have not found you.
I search for you every day,
I don't know where you are.
The struggle I know,
you cannot understand.
I fight to keep myself standing,
but the walls around my fortress are crumbling.
Would you say I am less of a man because this war is destroying me?
I am alone,
I have fought my whole adult life.
I am in my late 20's now and the horizon looks bleak.
Not like me, I am always strong and hopeful.
But this war rages on,
I am weakening.
I am still alive,
they tried to snuff me out
But I am still alive.
It is days like these when I look at myself and think"what is wrong with me"
When I am with a woman and I have affection I am comforted.
I am slower to all things,
when single
with no woman to comfort me
an angry violent beast
a recording plays inside my head
Designed to bring destruction
I will smite you all.
Like a time bomb with a self destruct.
It will blast it all away.
Wreck less?
Yes.
Helpful?
No.
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Saturday, August 17, 2013
What is HTML? For absolute beginners.
Hello everyone,
This is going to be one of the best blogs I have ever written. I began my quest to learn HTML not long ago and with the help of www.codeacademy.com I learned some important principles. These principles I am going to share with you as I understand them.
So, What is HTML? It stands for Hyper Text Markup Language. You can find this out easily anywhere online. It is good to know if you want to have a technical understanding of HTML.
So, What is Hyper Text Markup Language anyhow? This describes the name of the language in which your web browser "speaks". Try speaking Spanish to an English speaker, how far will you get? Not very far!
A web browser is the program (Firefox, Internet Explorer and Google Chrome) that allows your computer to communicate with the internet. Look at it this way, let us say there is 5 people that want to talk to each other but they all speak different languages..The Frenchman wants to communicate with the Mexican, who in turn wants to communicate with the Japanese man. They need some way to communicate, here enters the translator. The computer wants to communicate with the web. Like anything else, it has to have a means in which to complete this desired function.
All right, so we now know we need to know HTML to communicate to a web browser. It is the language we must learn in order to really get mr browser to do what we want. HTML is a language, therefore it uses elements like the English language. The alphabet, we use letters to form words and words to form sentences which conveys what we want. In the same way the web browser understands HTML, but we use TAGS. Here is an example of a TAG--> <b> <---see that b in those brackets? yep that is a TAG.
This tag represents the meaning "hey mr browser I want the following text to be a bold font".
Not so fast there slick, there is more to this!
Just like a sentence we use a period to indicate the statement is complete. In HTML language to end the "statement" we use a closing TAG instead of a period like in the English word. The closing TAG looks like this:
</b>
So, If I wanted to tell the browser to make my text bold I would type: <b> Make me bold Mr Browser </b>
This is basic HTML.
REMEMBER! There are many HTML TAGS that we use to create a web page. Before you can walk you gotta crawl. It is my belief if you understand the concept of HTML you will learn better and retain more.
I won't add more to this as I don't want to overwhelm you. This is like learning your ABC's I am not going to explain how to spell dog, if you don't even know the alphabet yet.
Now that you are equipped with this knowledge, head on over to www.codeacademy.com they have good tutorials there on coding.
This is going to be one of the best blogs I have ever written. I began my quest to learn HTML not long ago and with the help of www.codeacademy.com I learned some important principles. These principles I am going to share with you as I understand them.
So, What is HTML? It stands for Hyper Text Markup Language. You can find this out easily anywhere online. It is good to know if you want to have a technical understanding of HTML.
So, What is Hyper Text Markup Language anyhow? This describes the name of the language in which your web browser "speaks". Try speaking Spanish to an English speaker, how far will you get? Not very far!
A web browser is the program (Firefox, Internet Explorer and Google Chrome) that allows your computer to communicate with the internet. Look at it this way, let us say there is 5 people that want to talk to each other but they all speak different languages..The Frenchman wants to communicate with the Mexican, who in turn wants to communicate with the Japanese man. They need some way to communicate, here enters the translator. The computer wants to communicate with the web. Like anything else, it has to have a means in which to complete this desired function.
All right, so we now know we need to know HTML to communicate to a web browser. It is the language we must learn in order to really get mr browser to do what we want. HTML is a language, therefore it uses elements like the English language. The alphabet, we use letters to form words and words to form sentences which conveys what we want. In the same way the web browser understands HTML, but we use TAGS. Here is an example of a TAG--> <b> <---see that b in those brackets? yep that is a TAG.
This tag represents the meaning "hey mr browser I want the following text to be a bold font".
Not so fast there slick, there is more to this!
Just like a sentence we use a period to indicate the statement is complete. In HTML language to end the "statement" we use a closing TAG instead of a period like in the English word. The closing TAG looks like this:
</b>
So, If I wanted to tell the browser to make my text bold I would type: <b> Make me bold Mr Browser </b>
This is basic HTML.
REMEMBER! There are many HTML TAGS that we use to create a web page. Before you can walk you gotta crawl. It is my belief if you understand the concept of HTML you will learn better and retain more.
I won't add more to this as I don't want to overwhelm you. This is like learning your ABC's I am not going to explain how to spell dog, if you don't even know the alphabet yet.
Now that you are equipped with this knowledge, head on over to www.codeacademy.com they have good tutorials there on coding.
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
XBOX 360 REPAIR: THE JOURNEY
Xbox 360 repair. What have I learned so far?
There are many "tricks" that temporarily fix the problem and these are rubbish.
I had one Xbox 360 Elite that the tray was jammed shut. I opened the case by removing the front cover which just pops off. Then I poked the resistance generating tabs on the back of the case to release the case from itself. Then I stuck my screw driver underneath the front retaining clips to release the front top half from the lower bottom half.
After watching many youtube videos I found out the "drive belt" becomes weakened after awhile and wears out. And to restrengthen the drive belt you take a cup of hot water throw the belt in for 10 seconds then immediately put in cold water. I then dried it off and put it back on the little gears inside the disc drive. Low and behold it "fixed" the disc drive and I was able to play game and dvd on it. Looking back I decided I wanted to fix it properly and not have the same worn out belt go bad again. So I bought a lot of 25 belts so I can start replacing them .
The next task was another Xbox 360 with a stuck closed tray. I opened up the case and after watching some youtube videos what I did was spray some WD40 type cleaning on the back of the motor that spins the disc. Apparently the drive gets crud or whatever built up and then it won't spin the disc. I kept getting an open try error when I tried to put in the disc. It was because that little motor wasn't spinning fast enough.
I found out that even though people are thinking they can use a heat gun which looks like a hair dryer, they heat up the board to reflow the solder which is the problem with these consoles in the first place.. The GPU and CPU are getting over heated because of cheap thermal compound and the x-clamps wear out and don't keep the heat sinks tight against the board which stops the air lock from forming so the heat properly dissipates.
I found out that in order to properly re-flow the solder I need a re-flow station. The re-flow station has an soldering iron and a re-flow tool. Essentially the re-flow gun looks like a butane light it pushes hot air through directly as a temperature you set on the station. From what I am understanding you are supposed to aim the little end on just the chip to re-flow the solder. I still don't know how many degrees to set it at, and I don't know how long I should keep it hovering over the chips.
From what I have been seeing the most common problems with the Xbox 360 is the stuck disc tray, the disc not reading, the chips over heating, the laser not in the right starting position, the tray not staying closed, the "icu or whatever it is called" doesn't register that the tray is closed so it doesn't stay shut,
I learned that to program a wireless controller to a console, there is a little white button on the Xbox 360 that you hold down and then the green light spins around the power button. then you turn on your controller and hold down its white little button on top until it shows from spinning lights to one green light. Learning that was pretty cool.
Right now basically I need special tools for light so I can see while keeping my hands free. I need to have a good camera to take high quality pictures of the parts I am looking at. It is my intention to learn about the functions of the Xbox 360 down to the technical level so I fully understand the parameters of what it takes for this thing to work, I started this not really thinking about the time involved, I can't help but feel a little impatient. I do not have the money at this time to buy the jewelry magnification scope, the re-flow station and a special lamp to illuminate my work. I also want a mat to lay my work pieces on.
I learned that there are like 3-5 different watt power bricks. 150W 175W 203Watt for the different systems. Physically they are rather basic with minimal parts, the parts on a technical level are quite complex. I would like to sell one so I have more money to buy more systems however I am not satisfied with the quality of operation I am seeing. While I have two at this time that play games and DVDs I am not yet convinced.
It is pretty cool I had been opening the stuck shut trays by forcing the little gear that is barely visible and every time it has worked. However I have discovered a better way now, and that is to push down on a tab on the top side of the tray and then it easily slides out.
Combat preparation
- Combat Preparation
- OBJECTIVE: STRONG DURABLE BODY
- ACTIONS REQUIRED FOR OBJECTIVE SUCCESS
- Physical actions build strength.
- Push Ups build upper body strength. Which is needed in any circumstance requiring strength.
- For example in MMA your ability to push your enemy off, will depend on your shoulder strength. As well as your back strength/leg strength.
Sit Ups:
This exercise builds stomach strength which is core strength. Muscular abdomens can absorb more punishment from strikes.
Stretches:
Vital for reducing chances for injury. Warm the body up and ready it for battle.
Stretch-Arms,legs,back,stomach,ankles,neck,wrists,hips
Take vitamins to supplement your health. Eat plenty of protein rich foods and eat lots of vegetables and fruits.
Eliminate caffeine,greasy food,nutritionally defunct foods, candy, soda.
TRAINING REGIMEN:
Get up begin your stretches to warm up the body for the days activities.
Drink a glass of water.
Prepare some breakfast making sure it is balanced.
Let your food digest read a book for one hour.
Drink another glass of water
Walk for 15 minutes
begin jogging for however long you can stand.
cool down walk 5 minutes
Do a running sprint for a short distance, as long as you can stand.
cool down walk 15 minutes.
Come home take shower and get dressed
Read the book of your choosing for 1 hour.
My Creation
I was driving our car on the freeway. Three of my wives in side, the alpha female in the passenger seat. My two other wives in back. My alpha wife's job was to keep the other two in check. Always a believer in military order, like a wolf pack. Only now I don't know what her nationality will be my AF. I value all three of my wives enough that I would willingly lay my life down for them. I will protect them from any harm, I will fight to the death to defend them. We stopped at a hotel for the night. I had fully debated if we should all sleep in the same bed. Also I had debated whether it would be acceptable for us all to be sleeping together naked. After much thought I found that to be unacceptable, not in my eyes but more so for the rightness between my women. The body is sacred and should not be viewed casually, at least not by any other person besides me. I would see my wives naked of course on some occasion they would stand before me naked for me to inspect them. I will not lay with them together, I shall only lay with one at a time no less then an hour spent with that wife. With incredible disdain do I view porn stars and females who flaunt their naked bodies. They are filth that exists deserving a dark end. Forgiveness for their worthless repulsive acts. My respect and admiration goes to the women who value themselves and will not allow men to degrade them. For these dogs that call themselves men abuse and degrade their women. When a woman is producing milk these pigs squeeze the breasts like a ball. I have researched this and learned that if you do not express milk correctly it causes the woman pain. This to me is unacceptable, a woman should not be made to feel discomfort or pain in the pleasure of intimacy. In the moment my eyes are pleased, but my heart becomes heavy. I become sick to my stomach. When I decided to lay with my AF I instructed my two other wives to fetch us refreshments. I wanted time with my AF and I did not want to be disturbed.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
How to lose weight
If you don't want to gain weight, and you want to lose weight here is what you do. It is quite simple, Don't sit down. If you don't sit down you will be less likely to eat, you will be doing something if you are not sitting. Sitting is the enemy of all fat people around the world. You get fat sitting down not standing up.
You also get fat by looking at fast food places. Avoid these places like the plague, they carry the disease of obesity. The biggest factor is just don't sit down. You barely burn any calories and most people eat sitting down. Laying down while eating does not work too well, pretty sure you will choke.... The less time sitting, means the more time moving burning calories and not eating.
I get indigestion when I eat while walking or standing. Hopefully you will too haha.
You also get fat by looking at fast food places. Avoid these places like the plague, they carry the disease of obesity. The biggest factor is just don't sit down. You barely burn any calories and most people eat sitting down. Laying down while eating does not work too well, pretty sure you will choke.... The less time sitting, means the more time moving burning calories and not eating.
I get indigestion when I eat while walking or standing. Hopefully you will too haha.
How to install computer memory RAM
Hello people.
I want to start out by saying, if you have no idea what you are doing don't do it. I work as tech support for a large computer memory company. And as much as I hate to bring work home with me, this is my retaliation on a job that sucks the life out of me. So if I must do this job, you get everything that goes with it. One thing that really annoys me is when a customer calls in and it is obvious they have no idea what they are doing.
This becomes clear when they begin telling you about their problem. Typically these folks are do not know how to articulate themselves. What is shocking is when a PC technician calls me up and he ordered the wrong memory module DoH! Really guy? You work on computers for a living and you can't even order the right memory?
Now I might be arrogant as I did spent 2 weeks learning about computer memory. Believe me I did not enjoy this torturous experience. Every day I got home I thought my brain would explode. The typical questions I get now that I have some idea what the heck I am doing is the following. Typically customers will call in because they ordered the wrong part, the memory is faulty or they have questions about compatibility.
Seriously, a pet peeve of mine is people who have no business upgrading memory. I consider myself computer literate and I did upgrade my own memory. But here is the thing I am A. smart enough to know how to use a website to find out the right memory. B I know enough about memory that I can install it without a manual. Don't get me wrong it is a simple job to take out old memory and put in new memory. You would be surprised how many people much it up.
These people can read you their specs on their machine, but they can't tell you what it all means. I often have people calling me about problems with their Imac Mac Pro ect computers. What I have come to learn is Macs don't like speeds that are faster then what they are designed for. While I could go on further with this I am getting tired and bored of it.
Upgrading RAM is easy. Find out what your computer specs are, find a website to give you a match. Order the memory, take out old memory and install new memory. On some occasions you may need to update the BIOS to get your memory to work. I just talked to a guy today he has spend 6 hours worth of time trying to figure out how to upgrade his RAM. Apparently he had a limit of 3GB and he could only get 1.5GB to work.
If you have 6 hours worth of time in installing new memory, throw in the towel. Then go to your yellow pages and hire a professional. Just make sure he is not a dum dum, get a referral from someone.That is it, that is all i got.
I want to start out by saying, if you have no idea what you are doing don't do it. I work as tech support for a large computer memory company. And as much as I hate to bring work home with me, this is my retaliation on a job that sucks the life out of me. So if I must do this job, you get everything that goes with it. One thing that really annoys me is when a customer calls in and it is obvious they have no idea what they are doing.
This becomes clear when they begin telling you about their problem. Typically these folks are do not know how to articulate themselves. What is shocking is when a PC technician calls me up and he ordered the wrong memory module DoH! Really guy? You work on computers for a living and you can't even order the right memory?
Now I might be arrogant as I did spent 2 weeks learning about computer memory. Believe me I did not enjoy this torturous experience. Every day I got home I thought my brain would explode. The typical questions I get now that I have some idea what the heck I am doing is the following. Typically customers will call in because they ordered the wrong part, the memory is faulty or they have questions about compatibility.
Seriously, a pet peeve of mine is people who have no business upgrading memory. I consider myself computer literate and I did upgrade my own memory. But here is the thing I am A. smart enough to know how to use a website to find out the right memory. B I know enough about memory that I can install it without a manual. Don't get me wrong it is a simple job to take out old memory and put in new memory. You would be surprised how many people much it up.
These people can read you their specs on their machine, but they can't tell you what it all means. I often have people calling me about problems with their Imac Mac Pro ect computers. What I have come to learn is Macs don't like speeds that are faster then what they are designed for. While I could go on further with this I am getting tired and bored of it.
Upgrading RAM is easy. Find out what your computer specs are, find a website to give you a match. Order the memory, take out old memory and install new memory. On some occasions you may need to update the BIOS to get your memory to work. I just talked to a guy today he has spend 6 hours worth of time trying to figure out how to upgrade his RAM. Apparently he had a limit of 3GB and he could only get 1.5GB to work.
If you have 6 hours worth of time in installing new memory, throw in the towel. Then go to your yellow pages and hire a professional. Just make sure he is not a dum dum, get a referral from someone.That is it, that is all i got.
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